I have gastroparesis. It’s been a year since my diagnosis. It’s a hideously painful disease where you want to eat but know the aftermath will be too much to bare. Or sometimes you’re so nauseous you can’t even smell food. Food becomes your enemy but you need it to survive. I’ve lost very close family relationships, including my father who passed away without me being able to say goodbye. I am very lucky my boyfriend loves me so much. He’s also been taking care of my bills since I had to make the painful decision to apply for SSI and am awaiting approval, hopefully. I’m typing this while in bed balled up in indescribable pain. Please help!